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| My Sexiest Mistake Gave Me Herpes |
| 01.26.05 (9:24 pm) [edit] |
So, it appears that I've finally scared away my audience, which I suppose is a good thing. The tightened strings of my social girdle have loosened for the time being.
Or that January is a rediculously busy month for everyone. Maybe they'll come back, maybe they won't. I've given up on worrying, honestly. After Christina and after losing my job... I can't do it. [Where's it gonna get you acting serious?]
I suppose that the only thing I can really do right now is bury myself in my music, and feed off of my currently unrestrained creative portion of the brain. As soon as things start going well again, the rational side will take over and I'll be reduced to bland, boring tunes. Oh, the paradox of the life of the musician. True happiness brings down the happiest of dreams.
Or something.
Sorry, I'm just getting over a drastic disillusionment, which roots in a long term, deply vein line of hope. If I come off as sad/bitter/angry/dramatic then trust that time heals all wounds, and that my relationship with the dream will fade from memory, only surfacing when I get really drunk and I end up bawling in the arms of a friend who's only there because he's supposed to watch over me when I drink to make sure that I don't fuck my foot up anymore.
Or something.
Anyway, I hope that's personal enough for you.
I don't want to say anymore.
--Avarice
[i]Can we eat them?[/i]
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posted by: misskendy (reply)
post date: 01.28.05 (8:12 pm)
ur audience lives...barely lol
I am sick *sniffle* *cough*
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